I’m fine, but I’m not OK.

Waode Makani Daga
Sep 7, 2018 · 2 min read

Assalamualaikum warahmatulaahi wabarakatuh.

Hi guys. I’m back again. Now I’ll sharing what I’ve ever heard before in Youtube, it’s recording from Unknown that written by Jénnifer Ragétles. Everytime I started to play the recording, I try to recast every incident that makes me sometimes feel sick when I have to lie to myself. This is the text.

Hey. I just wanted to call you, to tell you that I’m not ok. There’s a lot of things happening and I don’t know what to do. Do you remember what I said in our last conversation?

I lied. I’m not OK.

Do you know when you can’t feel anything anymore? You don’t know what is happiness, you don’t know what is sadness. You just walk, eat.. dress. But you don’t feel anything. It’s just your body without your soul. You get lost in your thoughts, you try to find a logical explanation of why you’re like this.

Your life become meaningless.

You don’t see joy in things, not even in the things you love. And that makes you wonder yourself if you really love that thing. All you want is to forget the world.

.. run away, where questions are not asked.

I don’t want you worry about me. I don’t want anyone to worry about me.

.. I’m fine, but I’m not OK.

Well, tragic enough to be felt alone right?

I admit, I have experienced the same thing as the text above. But I have many reasons to deal with everything to the end. That way, I can know how worthy I am for myself until I realize how worthy I am for the others.

Thank you for reading. See you.

Wassalamualaikum warahmatullaahi wabarakatuh.

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