You survived and in addition decided to and make something of yourself. That’s a double grace. I have know people who have survived near death experiences (One young man at work work up with half of his face pealed and filled with glass from the windshield. He was driving alone drunk), who in spite of having a close call, still don’t get it right and choose to remain in their inner shells of deceit and lies. They’re good at deceiving themselves. Some may say I am being too judgmental, but I have worked at length with some of these individuals and studied them before arriving at a conclusion… that they tell one lie after another. You chose the better road.