2018 Resolutions, Because I Have a Life to Live

As a fickle person, I know too well that this new-year-resolutions thingy won’t do anything with my life if I don’t put these in a realistic way. Since 2012, I’ve always made several new resolutions each year. However, I couldn’t manage to achieve it all. Hence, I chose to put some realistic resolutions to do this year. Here is my list.

1. Gain my weight (at least a kilogram per month). It will be hard, indeed. However, I ought to do this since I think that my underweight condition annoyed me most for my years before. In order to achieve this, I have to make a new routine: eat more often, exercise regularly, and reduce my cigarette’s consumption.

2. Take a breakfast every, single, day. Since I got in my apartment and living alone, I rarely eat breakfast anymore. Thus, this resolution should be a thing. At least, I could take a jar of uncooked oats (God knows how lazy I am in the morning to make a breakfast prep) or some slices of bread.

3. Reduce my addiction to cigarettes. Every once in a while, I make this resolution so I would have a better health condition. However, I know my own body and my own mind. Instead of quit for good, I think I could reduce my consumption. Here the plan: I should not smoke UNLESS I am writing at the moment. Aside from that, I shouldn’t smoke anymore.

4. Exercise regularly. This is a not-so-new routine that I have to do once again, at least like in my high school years. It doesn’t have to be hard exercise, indeed, since I know that I would be too lazy for that. However, some weight exercises would be fine.

5. No more new book. I already have too many books, to begin with, so I’d like to read it all before starting to buy the new ones. Here’s a brief list of books that I want to read this year:

- Haruki Murakami’s Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki.
- Leila Chudori’s Laut Bercerita.
- Eka Kurniawan’s O.
- George Orwell’s Animal Farm.
- Rio Johan’s Ibu Susu.
- Leila Chudori’s Malam Terakhir.
- Eka Kurniawan’s Corat-coret di Toilet.
- Haruki Murakami’s 1Q48.
- Orhan Pamuk’s Snow.

6. Writes more often. 2017 was a good year for me in terms of writing, I wrote almost every day. Nevertheless, it wasn’t enough. For 2018, I should participate more in international writing competition (at least 5 competition), submit my works to local newspaper (Kompas and Jakarta Post would be great), submit my works to international literary magazine (it shall be in English, indeed), and start to write my own novel (Rumyang and Grandma’s Tale ideas could be elaborated, I think).

7. Conducting an independent research project. This is my ultimatum to you, Agnia Sambara! You’ve already proclaimed your title as “independent researcher” after all, and I think that you have to work your ass off in order to become an independent researcher who can bear the name. Your long last aspiration on writing about SINDIKASI, Aksi Kamisan, or Aliansi Laki-laki Baru could be great, sort of.

8. Develop my relationship with Aksara better. I know that it sounds too personal (but hey, personal is political, right?) and a little bit cliche, but I want to make my relationship a better one. No more absurd insecurity, no more too defensive in the discussion, no more hot-headed-furious-time-with-lot-of-satirical-arguments (I have a hunch that it could develop into a bigger issue. I know that I am a satirical person but still).

9. Minimalize my social media usage. I’ve already done it at the end of December 2017 when I quitting Twitter. I think that social media could make me feel insecurity at most time, while it could be a medium for me to procrastinate. Hence, I should embrace my real-life-experiences more and more in the year to come!

10. Make a living for good. My contract with the Center for Gender and Sexuality Studies will reach its end in January 2018. As a person who currently living in a precarious state, I should get myself a steady job with good wages and materialize my ideological stance at the same time.

This is it. Welcome, 2018!