A for Beginning

Sunflowers & Sunshine.

Do you believe in life after love?

I don’t.

My life after I stopped writing has been really pretentious and empty. I’ve always loved writing. I’ve always wondered, “what kind of content will i write?”, “ what kind of genre will i do?”. I’m always afraid because I know people will read and people will judge. I’m always afraid because I’m not good at writing but I love it. I love doing it. My mother told me that when I was a toddler, the first thing that I loved doing is holding a pen and write random words. I even did poetry and until now I always wonder, why did I stop? Maybe I know the answer but I’m too abashed admitting it. Sad, but true. I know I have a potential. Everyone has. I am not only passionate but I’m also terrified. I believe that people with talent write seamlessly and people with passion write incoherently. That’s because ideas explode inside their hearts.

I’ve decided that I will stop being terrified and I will stop comparing myself to others. I will stop seeking for recognition from people. I will be me. I will write again. This time, for real.