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Loosing someone:
I give up…I can’t..I can't do this..I can’t.. I can’t move on and I don't want to…If that makes me weak then fine, I'm weak but, I can’t handle you..I can’t handle you being gone…I can’t handle feeling like this anymore…when we loose someone, they’re gone, forever and there is nothing, there is nothing, nothing that we can do that is going to bring them back. Sometimes it makes me sad though, I have to remind my self that some birds aren’t meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright, but still…I guess I just still miss you.
You’re everything to me:
- what’s a soulmate?
- -It’s a-well like a best friend but more. It’s the one person in the world who knows you better than anyone else. It’s someone who makes you a better person, actually, they don’t make you a better person, you do that yourself, because they inspire you, a soulmate is someone who you carry with you forever. It’s the only person who knew you & accepted you and believed in you before anyone else did, and no matter what happens you’ll always love them, nothing could ever change that.
- because you’re just all that matters. okay? you’re all that matters to me. but the truth is…you’re everything to me. It was the first time that I saw you, I’ve never seen anything so perfect. someday, someone will love you for exactly who you are. It just might take you longer than the rest of us, that’s all.
You’re all I have:
no, no you can’t, please don’t go away. Please? No one’s every stuck with me for so long before. when I look at you I can feel it and I look at you, and I…and I’m home. please, i don’t want that to go away. It’s the loneliness, I can’t take it, and I only know one way to turn it off. I’m sorry. please stay. I don’t care where we are, I just care that we’re together, i know that now. You’re my home baby. I will do anything if you stay. but you know I can’t…I don’t love you anymore. since when? now, just now
I love you, where? show me where is this love because I can’t see it, I can’t touch it or even feel it. I can’ hear it, I can hear some words but I can’t do anything with your easy words…
It’s about you and how you make me feel when I’m with you. I feel like im stupid and worthless and I’m never right, and I realized it is not my fault… I want you to care. I don’t want you to just accept it like that’s the way it’s supposed to be. You are all I have. and from now on life is pain and I wake up every morning and I’m in pain, I do everything in pain
It was you that was best for me:
If this was the las time you were gonna see me, what would you say? I’ll wait, but no I can’t let you do that. I’d say thankyou. I’d say I love you. I always will… Why the hell am I still here? maybe, it’s because of this. maybe it’s a chance to see you again and a chance to tell you how sorry I am, tell you how much I love you. I wanted to do something good. and I wanted to save you from some of the pain, I blame you for thinking you knew what was best for me, when it was you that was best for me. I would’ve chosen you no matter what and you took that away from me. You want me to fall in love with you again? how do I do that if I haven't ever stopped.
I don’t want our story to end this way:
so are you over me? over me
I know im over being sad all the time
wondering when you'll call
do you have any idea how lonely I felt this past few months?
but im here now…
so, I had to breakup with you for to become important enough for you to come?
look, I'm sorry, long distance is hard, but i promise it’ll get better…
how?????
when was the last time we actually talked?
please…
I don’t want our story to end this way..
I’m broken:
I saw you screaming, & no one can hear. you almost feel ashamed. no one will never understand how much it hurts. you feel hopeless, but nothing can save you. I wanted to fold up & stop. I didn’t wanna think anymore… I don’t expect you guys to understand…you don’t know me.
What the hell is wrong with you? well too much… that’s the problem isn’t it. you can’t do anything about that, you can’t change it, you can't fix me, im broken, but it don't need to be fixed, okay? I'm me.
I’m not doing great. in fact I can’t remember the last time I felt this bad. I doesn’t matter what I do…or what I choose… I'm whats wrong…and that is because of you, becuase you loved me and then left me standing there like a fool… that was the day i knew you never loved me the way i did all this time.
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