Great article. I love the honesty and raw feelings. I myself relate in many ways. I’m 58 just beginning over the last five years to be honest with myself accepting myself for who I am. Making the changes to live a life worth living. Religion played a big part in my life of denial and self hated. It’s taken along time and I have yet to have a relationship but I know in time it will happen.
I recently came across a book that really helped me shift my understanding of who my God is. While I’ve always believed God loves unconditionally because of things from my childhood I could not believe he loved me unconditionally. Those are old beliefs that I am having to reprogram and form new beliefs that work for me now. I spent a lifetime hating myself because of old beliefs taught to me by others. It’s time now to spend the rest of my life honoring and loving myself.
In case your interested The book is
Conversation With God An uncommon dialogue
By Neale Donald Walsch.
I wish you well.
