Have you ever ran out of hope? You look at your life, to all the possibilities, and none of them seem good? Not talking about perfect, I’ve given up on perfect many years ago. I thought that quitting my job would give me a breath of fresh air, a new…

It never was. Or at least I can remember the last time it was. Even before the whole pandemic thing, when I was walking careless through the streets of Los Angeles, holding a Starbucks cup, shopping and dancing, something inside me was broken. …

Alcohol tastes better when you’re sad. Good thing is, I’m always sad. So I sit and pour myself a drink, which is always the best drink of my life. The first sip is always the absolutely best. The friendly burn in my throat, the relaxation in my muscles, feeling all…

I arrived early. Way too early. I couldn’t stand still at home, so I got an Uber an hour earlier and got to the place. I kept walking the streets and smoking, trying to calm my nerves. …

I know I fucked up. I know I should have valued you 6, 5 years ago. And I didn’t. And I’m so sorry. I valued someone I shouldn’t. I ignored how much you cared for me. I ignored how gorgeous, thoughtful and amazing you were, ‘cause I was blind for something I…

It’s weird how we get used to pain. Probably some old mechanism survivor that our body just makes pain something comfortable. Pain became part of who I am, of my daily life. But what do you do when the pain is gone? No one ever speaks about how uncomfortable it…

This last week has been hard. I’ve been at my lowest, and trust me, I’ve been at low points in my life. It’s like my own mind have been sabotaging me and not allowing me to think about anything else… except our meeting. After days of thinking about how it…

“Isn’t it him”? My friend told me. I didn’t have to look around much, I would recognize that face anywhere, even after so many years went by. The crazy thing is I felt nothing, just pure panic. It’s like my soul left my body for a couple of seconds, I…