I WISH I HAD A BOWL CINNAMON TOAST CRUNCH RIGHT NOW!!!

I haven’t written in quite a long time. I guess I haven’t really written since the FNF end-terms. That is okay. I needed a break. I guess a break from overthinking everything. I guess that is what I do when I write like this. But it’s nice to get it out of my head and onto paper. It’s kind of a good thing that I didn’t NEED to write these past week. I survived without it. But there is also a lot going on in my life right now, so I need to keep it all balanced. Actually I don’t know if it’s really fair to say that there is a lot going on in my life these days. I guess that’s just what I like to think, to make myself feel important. Anyway. I feel okay overall. Not too stressed, not depressed. Just managing everything going on. I’ve been thinking a lot about extra things I want to do. I should just do them. Lots of things. Why not. I can. And the more I do, the more opportunities will come my way. My ideas will build on each other and I’ll end up making something quite nice. It’s quite difficult to get started though. Life can be so distracting. I’m spending a lot of my time working. And then I often just want to do nothing, to relax, in-between. That is allowed, that doesn’t mean I’m depressed, it’s just a break. I wonder if it’s not a good idea right now to allow myself to write like this. To let all of this in. To process it. In a way it legitimizes it. It doesn’t matter. I’m a good boy. I just want more good things in my life. I want lots of good things. I can do that. I can learn and grow and experience and listen and do and make and it will be awesome. Is this me being a coach for myself? Kind of. I am going to eat cinnamon toast crunch for breakfast. Actually no. I’m going to eat cinnamon toast for breakfast. Not the cereal, the actual toast. I should publish this text on medium. That will be nice. I still have a lot of writing to do. Because this feels so good. It feels so good to write right now. It makes me feel very very good. I don’t know the word for it. I guess lethargic. I need a better, what’s the word for the — vocabulary!! I need a better vocabulary ~~~~~ isn’t it ironic? ~~~~~ oh well. I have so much stuff to do. I’m going to eat. And go see Ralf. I should put on a load of laundry. I should publish this on medium. I want to write a lot. It will be good for me. Maybe I can get a following. I wonder if people will like what I write. Oh well, I’m not really doing this to please them. I’m doing this because I need it, to sift through all the ideas in my head and find the golden nuggets. I’m quite poor right now. I don’t really wish that I had more money though either. I know I can survive without money. Life will go on. That’s not true. I am super spoiled. If I ask my parents for money, they will just send it to me. I was thinking about making a kind of food blog. With alien food. Like weird food that doesn’t look like it could be from earth. I don’t know. I need to justify the fiction of it a bit more. I guess all intergalactic science fiction is about creating an analogy for earth. But maybe I shouldn’t explain if the food I’m cooking is alien food, or if it’s just food from earth from the future. Maybe I should leave it completely open ended. It will all be vegan of course. Anyway. Maybe I can also make dinners out of it in Berlin, turn it into an experience. I want to get a job in Berlin. At a bouldering gym. I definitely want to work at a bouldering gym. That would be awesome. Even if it’s just a cleaning job. As long as I feel like I’m a part of the family there and that I can climb for free. That would be awesome. I kind of need to use the toilet now. That is disgusting, I shouldn’t write about that. Oh well. Anyway. I need to fix up my bike. Blah Blah Blah Blah. I’m glad Philipp is moving in today. I’m looking forward to that. I just want to be a good boy. I’m excited for life, there are so many cool things happen. I’m quite busy, I have a lot of things to do. So I better just do them. Starting with the pooping. OK BYE<.