Thank you for this. I am transgender and very late out of the closet. But I really identified with the encounter with the girl you liked, had been trying to get to know, and your failure to carry through. For years I hated myself for those moments. I saw myself as such a failure and, not understanding, hated myself for being that person. Your reminded me of these incidents — which in turn will allow me to heal myself, now that I understand myself better.