I think one of the most difficult things about God is that he uses humans; he gives us free will. Too often our free will, and other people’s free will, screw everything up.
I love reading how raw and honest you are when you write about your faith journey. But I’m usually left heartbroken by all that you’ve endured.
People suck. I’m sorry they’ve hurt you.
I’m not going to say, “Give God another chance,” because I just don’t think it works that way.
When you’re ready, if you’re ever ready, he’ll meet you where you’re at. And ironically, he’ll use a human to do it. ;-)