Standing out. I have always stood out. Not blicauseI really wanted to. More so because I had to. I was horrible at fitting in. Up until my early twenties I desperately did what ever I could to trick people into beleving that I was“normal” just like them. I had the right clothing. The right walk. Talked about the right shit. But eventually I would always get too comfortable. I would say the wrong thing. Someone would catch me doing the wrong thing when I thought no one was looking. And just like after all the time, effort and money that I had invested in faking the role my cover twas blopwn and I was exposed for the unique individual that I was. I stood out. Living the life as a person that stands out is exactly bittersweet. There are so many negatives and positives to standing out that t is not even worth tallying up to compare and contrast pros and cons. Majority of people will to what ever to takes to not stand out. Most people will do whatever it takes to avoid speaking to a impatient and agitated crowd…Being identified as that guy that tried something different and screw up…That guy that hit on that girl and creeped her out…The kid that raised his hand in class and got the answer wrong. People are afraid of failure. So here is the problem. People love the idea of standing out but they are terrified of experiancing any level of faiulure particulary if it is public failure. And because we know that experiancing failure is a inevitable part of standing out we refuse to do anything that would invole us standing out and being noticed enough to be picked out of the crowd. People think they are standing out when they leave the house in thousand dollar flashy shoes, facial piercing, dramatically fancy hair. To them it feels like standing out but its not. Im not focused enough to finish this idea. Im going to publish it anyway because I care more about publish a damn piece than I do completing a idea right now…