Earlier this week I felt that something wasn’t right. I was almost 11 weeks pregnant but couldn’t shake the feeling that there was something wrong. I called my doctor and on Tuesday went in for an ultrasound because I couldn’t wait for my appt on Friday. The doctor confirmed my fear that the baby has stopped developing at 9 weeks. I was devastated. I’m 37 and my husband and I had been trying for a year while everyone around us was getting pregnant and having babies so easily. When we finally got pregnant we were ecstatic. We talked about how it would be with the baby and how our lives were going to change and we were so excited. And then just like that it was gone.

You can be so full of joy one moment and so empty the next. There’s nothing anyone can say or do that makes it better. The only small comfort is in other people who have gone through the same thing and now have healthy children. I’m hopeful for the future but so sad in the present. I know life will go on and that it will get easier, it’s just so hard right now not only for me but for my husband as well (sometimes we forget about their pain too).

Your story found me at the right time and I thank you for sharing!