We teachers had a name for kids like you. We called you submarine kids, the ones who would torpedo your own efforts. Many of those kids were gifted, but not all. Some were average, some were below average. The one thing they all had in common was a fear of displaying their true ability, because it might not be good enough, or because it might be too good and they didn’t know if they could (or wanted to) measure up to it again.
Yes, I was one, too.
Thanks for this honest window into the inner-Danna, and congrats on 100 stories. Well done.