Open message for my future present.

Hi Aldrin, these are collection of things you’ve learned last 2017. And also how you grew up. I just want to give you something to look back whenever you are lost, I know this will help you to bring yourself back.

When you feel insecure…

Please don’t be like that, you know that you’re not perfect and your imperfections are perfectly fine. Though sometimes you may feel like you’ve got a little bit of everything, always let yourself humbled your arrogance. You know that you are kind, and if you feel like defeated always remember that it’s not the things you loss that matters it is your heart that remains kind in silence.

For acads…

Please don’t be hard on yourself, always give time and a hundred percent of focus in whatever you are doing, but don’t forget to take good care of yourself. Sometimes all of puyats, and liters of coffee, and sacrifices, and cafe expenses, and highlighters, and ink of pen, and bundle of blank papers may not ripe a fruit, always remember that everything is still worth it. You may not be able to understand it now but soon I know you will. So cheer up and always put your heart in everything you do.

Being a failure…

You never believed the phrase “failure is part of success” that’s why in everything you do, you never let failure reached you. But failure is inevitable, what I like about you is you never let failure defeat you. You keep on fighting just to let them know that you never deserved failure because you have this unyielding courage and greatness that flows into your veins.

Disappointment…

Sometimes life doesn’t go the way we planned it. I want you to keep your virtues despite of every disappointments this life may give. Keep strong and don’t let your guard down.

Times you are happy…

Always be grateful for times like this. I know you, you tend to depreciate those people that surrounds you in your happy moments but please don’t forget to be thankful for having them. Treasure these moments like how you preserve your self value because I want you to grow up with something to look back during your downfalls.

In making decisions…

I know that you know that you are not good in making decisions, what I like about you is that you’re good in dealing with every circumstances your decisions may throw against you. Admire yourself for that, you deserve it. But still, I want you to slow down and take your time when making decisions, okay??

When you feel like you want to end your life…

For sure you’re feeling this because you’re in your room alone or you’re in the comfort room, during a cold and rainy day or night, and sometimes during sunset. Hey, you are more than of your (the time you wasted & your bad future) thoughts. Just keep slaying, love yourself and let’s see how far you can be.

Unhappy family…

I want you to consider that your Mama, Papa, Ate and Kuya are not perfect just like you. I know you’re sick with your Mama’s pagbubunganga, your Papa’s pambababae issues and for always having no time, your Ate’s kasungitan, and your Kuya’s alcohol addiction and extreme katamaran, but you still have that heart of yours that love them so much. And that love builds the firmest foundation for respect and acceptance of their failures and flaws.

Friends…

You may be wondering why some people around you leaves your side, it’s not your fault. You are growing and soon you will realize that some people are worth losing. But don’t be insensitive, always be cautious on your actions and please always and always and always try your best to not be rude to others. Remember that. Always.

Special someone…

It’s kinda funny cause I know this kind of topic seldom crosses your thought. By any chance, I want to keep you reminded about your relationship goals; a relationship that is full of love, acceptance, respect and understanding. But don’t expect for a perfect relationship, misunderstanding may occur so you gotta handle the situations right. Put that person the center of your life but never ever compromise your self-love, self-respect, and self-worth. Always love yourself every milliseconds of your life.

Aldrin, I know how fragile you are, pretending to be strong and brave but you can’t fool me yourself. I know how good you are in keeping pain unnoticeable, in keeping frustrations unobtrusive, and in keeping your tears invisible.

No matter who you are right now, what choices you made in life. I want you take stand for whatever you think is right. And always remember that your past, your present, and your future self supports you for every decisions you will make in this life that is full of unexpected challenges.

I will always love you no matter what.

Sincerely, yourself.