Dreams Out Of Reach?

This was technically supposed to be my 8th Medium post. Oh well. As I was posting, I found a whole slew of posts I missed from my 1st blog post. I was trying to honor where I started and whoops. In order to clearly understand, it’s best to read these in this order. It’s almost like reading chapter 4 then jumping to 15 lol. More in likely another mistake will happen. I even tried waking up at 4 am to play catch up haha.

I’m writing this the day after the gruesome Paul George injury. You just never know what can happen that can change or alter your life and put your dreams out of reach.

Life is too short to be living how others want me to live it.

Why do they see me as a easy target? Is it because they think their better and they want me to stay in the place they have set up to me? That is how they treat me and it shows in their behavior. I have relatives that act exactly like that in the sticks (yeah I said it). I can’t keep being around negative people that try to sabotage my career and telling me what I can’t do.

Too many people self sabotage themselves and keep their dreams from coming true. I will not stand in the way of my own success. Thinking about leaving theater and technology at my school. I feel extremely limited. It’s wrong to lump everyone in the same category. I’m a unique person. That place rubbed me the wrong way.

I call this being two faced. Some of you shut me down when I’m in your classrooms, then try to figure out what I’m up to behind my back. My LinkedIn notifications blew up. This is not Facebook, I know when you are creeping. Ultimate form of fake. And a little strange. If I’m so untalented, stupid, then why in the world would you be trying to figure out what I’m doing? Despite of what you think in your mind, I’m not beneath you. I’ve known some people that act snobby;

If you think saying the things you say will discourage me, it won’t work. Nice try though. It’s actually the opposite. You’re fuel to my fire.

I’m going to live my life the way I want to. In the end I don’t want to be older and look back on these years thinking “what if.” I have albums of music in me. Actors, Models and Talent for Christ. You’re on my radar. I took a oath to be pledge trainer. You do what you say you’re going to do. I will do what I promised, then see where life takes me.

My logo/brand will reflect my current state right now. My name and a heart with a knife stabbed in the middle. I have fan names for my fan base. Now looking for an animal that fits me. Current fans, thank you for sticking with me. It’s been a long road that I’ve traveled on. New future fans, I can’t wait to love you and be loved by you.

I saw this quote on a friend’s wall. “If you saw the size of the blessing coming, you would understand the magnitude of the battle you are fighting!” I know there’s a bigger reason why I went through certain things in college. I have faith that one of these days it will be revealed. And when it’s revealed. I’ll know.

-Alesha

Hello! I’m Alesha! I’m a musician, actress, entrepreneur and writer. Follow on Twitter. If you like what I’m writing, give me a heart and share! :) I like hearts.