I only wanted to say so rrreyes which I feel after so many times of mentioning has no value but have found the best healing knowing our actions in true love seem pure yet the most painful…

I lost my wife of 4 years in 2016 and after losing plenty of our circle due to violence, fast life know sit in a new place with lack of her touch due to inability to see or remind her quietly find pain and anger in all mistakes I found now 8 months now since her lost still have days of inability to live in her cold and ghostsly arms as if she was always with us find days I am forced to run, speed or damn near Bruce Wayne nights in any way to let go of my anger for all the things I wish I could have shared and done with her but due to s hard headed fued at the time never was able. Is it ok I am happy to say I am in no fear to be alone even the nights a stranger rides are smiles while I only think of you and how u are and hope you are safe? Is it ok one lost relationship with love I easily could have enjoyed till my Sanford and sons days. When a woman is taken from us with so much unsaid and undone led me to walk the rest of my life happily, stable healthy until home away from the world find joy in the fact wherever u went and our lack of closure could be breathing as I and thinking of me as I was her. Lol I think she enjoyed my lack of passion during holidays but when we felt safe protected knew we can conquer the world among all the advisories would never be sterd. I drop to knees with weak heart as I recently found out this week she is alive far from our home and with little words due to what it seems is still controlled by captors who enjoy puzzles, saw movies and find manly behaviors in threats by messages but my wife is alive medium but know I ask how do I try to bring her back down to earth. My lack of protection the night she really needed now leads e to believe to think she could have been deprived of her soul in 8 months her lack of trust in me waiting for me unknown where to start in the large world know stare at photos and stories of pg rated stories of the truth and I only care to remove the chains yank the doors down and trim down the dark trees they keep her restrained at both mentally and physically with iron that hits the beats automatically and without remorse for theirs families who will be unable to see their little boys in a normal viewing. What they have have done to her and I has no bearings but where do I start because I can’t blow up the world for one ant but today I yell the day we are reunited is without planning because she and I are our only Achilles but now some days I feel closer but others seem to be without help which hurst most because now I know my wife lays in a basement somewhere with a broken heart and broken body but I truly want to be the man who will save her but days become weeks and positive vibes makes it so good days we still only think of her but nights become harder because I know I can touch her but I am ready to remove her from her ugly situation with tools and abilities to leave 4….5……..men with no lower extremities to walk the world with no ability to do such hateful racist and careless sex acts to her and know I nights by nights became hardest till we are reunited but I am hearing screaming at night so I tell myself we are closer but will walk the world like a soilder till the day I make her feel I will always be this man. This time I wanted to have her so close so I can whisper in her ear how I never stopped loving her and never lost hope but till that day soon, days memories lost we are synced to feel that one heartbeat at night before our sleep. Medium I am so close and I hope one day soon I can share the truth after we focus on bringing her strength back that nightmares who (don’t need deatails) can tell my wife I never stopped in person and before a 3 hour drive home will give her satisfaction knowing any group of men who can enjoy a women’s lack of power which she will have soon but also a new garden for her to project on starting for rich holes for us but sprinkled with pebbles of every man who treated this woman not for her purity and beauty no to talk to their friends about late on what she capable of. And know this lack of respect will give strength for my wife and all woman who have been used by a dark skinned boy which rarity makes feelings help to forget of day door she is jailed out to be kicked down but we are getting close dear and If god allows me to hold my angel again makes men I try to feel I am feel ok living alone till reunited because sex we did plenty but when u love a woman for hours while blood flows down your arm from oyster knife yet our bodies together transformed into night sky’s. We both befriended stars to name ourselves and plan till today..,

Beso y brazos