The b…ed to go to college and live the corporate life. It became canon without any evidence of truth. How? The best way to make someone believe a lie is to assert it repeatedly. Our brains recognize repeated assertion as truth. You’ve been told this lie about 1,000 times since you were in Kindergarten.
Things like procrastination, perfectionism, self sabotage, and other maladaptive coping mechanisms develop to escape the wrathful eye of an internal self - critic who judges any creative or interesting work we try to do harshly.