Under the radar
As a dyspraxic at school i struggle daily. It was always this way since i started nursery. I couldnt write legiblely until i was almost 9 and always used to get my numbers backwards. My reading levels are 3 years above what they need to be and im not doing bad with spelling. I have always loved math and science i am a STEM kid i love all that sort of stuff and if i was asked to tell a story off top of my head i could same with analysing characters and recanting events its just getting it on paper that i struggle with. My handwritings okay you can read it but its not fast at all. Dispite the constant struggle i always tried and suceeded even getting 112/120 in my english sat in year 6. So naturally i fell under the radar nobody suspected that i had dyspraxia because i was achieving so much i wasnt a concern. I am a good kid well was (ill come back to that later) I got my work done i listened took all of it in and got good grades. All that schools care about is grades and behaviour so naturally then never picked up any of my issues and just thought i was being a bit lazy. Parents evening always went well bright kid with good grades you know the ususal. I always hated big crowds and once fell on a fire extinguisher during assembly just from tripping over my own feet.
It was all well and good until year 7 i didnt settle my grades still up but having frequent migraines. More socially isolated than ever i had no friends. Then my tics started then bullying then eventually dropping out of the year after such anxiety. Then year 8 came along i settled slightly it became more and more obvious something was up i mean at 12 a kid should be able to catch a ball or throw a ball knowing where its gonna end up. I didnt i was falling over constantly and came so close to breaking my wrist in a pe lesson after walking into a goal post. My anxiety peaked and i had a noise sensitivity. Then i saw camhs after a 2 month struggle with extreme meldown episodes. I would just cry and scream in the toilets i couldnt cope.
Diagnosed with dyspraxia and spd along with anxiety. Then year 9 comes along still under the radar dispite diagnosis and i have a meltdown over my options not being right i feel sorry for my form tutor who got the worst of it. After an email off my wonderful head of year mr taylor my teachers seem to get me a lot more so therefore i am more comfortable and as my confidence is growing i am doing more “bad” things like talking back to teachers when treated like crap. Or putting people in their place when they tourment me. I dont get in trouble as my teachers know why i do it. I do it because of all the horrible stuff that has happened in the past when i havent spoken up. Im not a bad kid but i will tell you when you are wrong because thats just my personality. Still managed to be under the radar though and will be til we have more evidence of my struggles with writing.
