You might wondering why I spent all this time, writing this series about you, just to tell you something that only serves as a memory. A memory that even will be replace by another wonderful memory of yours in the future. Something that you probably even wouldn’t read it or feel it.
During those times, I’ve never been able to tell you about all this feeling inside me. It’s not because I couldn’t, but it’s because I wanted to relish all of those moments without thinking of what might happen in the future. It only serve as a reminder to me, that having a memory could lead and change people into something they wouldn’t have thought before. That you’ve touched upon one’s heart, and made them grow gracefully.
Because nothing in our life is guaranteed. The only consistent thing that will happen in our life is change. And this is how I remember you.
All changes are inevitable and it always comes with loss attached to it. It left something behind, but it also left us with an abundance of greater joy and memories.
Somehow, I think that’s how life works. We move on from one stage to another. We stop by in someone’s life and vice versa. Some are remembered and some are forgotten. The question is, which side are we belong to?
Well then again, nothing will last forever. Nothing.
And it’s fine.
It doesn’t matter what type of roads we chose in the past. There will be no memory and no happiness if it weren’t happened. If it weren’t for those moments with you, I would probably still standing deep in the darkness right now. If it weren’t for those moments with you, I wouldn’t know what it feels like to be happy. Hell, if it weren’t for those moments with you, I wouldn’t appreciate life like it’s supposed to be. But to say the least, I’m thankful that it ends.
Because these memories won’t feel special, if it last forever.
And in this very night, the night where I used to imagined I would be standing next to you and wishing you for the entire universe to give you an abundance of joy and happiness and also it is the day when you turn 24, allows me to convey my last feeling to you with all my heart, for the last time.
Happy Birthday. You’ve found your happiness.
I toured the light, so many foreign roads.
For Indira, forever ago.
The End.
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- Credits to “For Emma” by Bon Iver.
