Skyrim, escaping from reality

So many talked about this subject and for many people is boring, but I would write anyway. After talk about love, gender, sexuality and religion I decide to talk a little about my escape from this world. A game that has the ability of transport me to the fantasy world that no other have.
It’s impossible to talk about Skyrim without talk about mods, files that can alter all sort of things in this game, even make another game that only remotely remembers the original. This is what makes all possible. All stories of this open world game wouldn’t be so vivid without mods. I installed all sort of mods, body, textures, lighting even tested some sex mods in the past. Real world is very complicated and this game offers the simplicity in all sort of things.
I can be what I want to be, do what I want. I have a huge and beautiful world to explore. Some can argue that Skyrim is not that beautiful, is a matter of taste. Well, it’s not, except if you reject the fantasy world all together (even for that I find some obscure mods with modern world areas at Skyrim) it’s a matter of skill and/or patience. Find the right mods, test, install each one in the right order, read the instructions, test a bunch of mods to find what you prefer and voila Skyrim world is near perfect.
Of course sometimes I become tired of the same missions, or the mechanics, but I always come back. Walking in this game, slashing enemies with a sword, learning new strategies or simply trying new armor/clothes make me forget all the problems I have in the real world. If I don’t like my face, I can change it anytime (I prefer not brake the game and talk to the NPC at Riften, but it can be done easily with console commands). If i’m tired of the Dragonborn story I can have another start and never be the Dragonborn until I decide to.
Recently I decide to enhance the Special Edition version, I was using very few mods. I fallowed the PC Gamer guide to enhance graphics, together with the BOSS guide. An enb and reshade mod, huge texture packs, better combat, better AI all kinds of graphic patches and some gameplay patches. The game become gorgeous, diversity and citizens mods help the world feel more alive. More armors, female and male bodies, everything helps with the immersion.
Change things in real world require a lot of effort and discipline (I’m trying to loose weight at least, but independent what path I choose, it’s hard). Some things requires a lot of courage I don’t have. I can have some adventures at real world, but most of my days aren’t that exciting and life is taking risks, accept things that I cannot change and deal with little annoyances almost every day. I have to deal with fear of needles, a body that doesn’t align with my gender, lack of motivation and direction for a job that I don’t like, suddenly a car accident and a flu.
With more than 600 hundred games, some of then I never touched. I come back to Skyrim. Having much fun as if I’m playing the game for the first time, living in a world of dreams tired of the sadness of this reality, where everything is hard as hell, and not as rewarding that it was in games. Don’t get me wrong, I love my life, but sometimes reality becomes too hard to fight all the time and I deserve a break from it.
— Alert! tecnical stuff — I don’t have a list of mods right now, but at least for the screenshot these mods would be enough: phoenxVivid enb (good quality for Vivid Weathers), Noble Skyrim HD textures, Forest of Dibella, Veydosebrom, Bent Pines, Aspen 4k, UNP Renewal, Leyenda Skin, Diversity, UNP Repack Armor, Vivid Weathers, ApachiiSkyHair and Extra Hair Colors. Base game: Skyrim Special Edition, Mod manager: Mod Organizer
