Day 2: The story of Lifegroup (15 Jul 2015)

New rule to be added into the challenge. No belated blogging. What is done in the day is done and there shall be no turning back. I hope this teaches me a valuable lesson.

Lifegroup today was especially good. I struggle when it is good because I do tend to take credit for myself. However, I know that it is God that has been changing people and the lifegroup growing as a whole.

Lord, what does it take for the lifegroup to be as strong as say, Becky’s? I know that I should not compare but then again they are a role model for me to follow.

So where do I start, there was a lot of laughter and honest sharing. The small icebreaker that we played at the beginning helped the lifegroup to break the ice a little bit and that people cannot wait to share but share promptly. We started out by asking everyone to choose a number from 1–30 without any repeats and then we arrange the numbers from smallest to the largest. We then sat in the new circle and begin sharing.

We shared about unforgiveness and how we had some grudges within us and what was the hardest for us to accomplish. Somehow the sharing was very personal and deep. God thank you for building this community of people. Really. It seem like it just happened overnight. Maybe one thing that changed a lot was that Weiiyang shared a lot of constructive stuff during LG and I hope that that will help him to change and grow.

Going to start discipleship with him and Zhong hua. I really hope that that works out as well.

Onto greater heights!

(Next aim, try to write earlier and have more structured thoughts)

End of day

Mum having some sort of recovery and bad mood at the same time. Been finding fault with me the whole time since I’m home and for some reason I cannot ask her what I needed to do for houseework. She just berated me at some chopsticks I didn’t wash?? I’m sure I didn’t do that intentionally. And then she went on to say that I’m an engineer… and that I should know this?

This is irrelevant. What made it worse is that Dad screamed at me to come back out. I’m not going to be called out like a dog. I think I can be asked to be treated like a grown up.

How is this ok?

And yet yesterday’s LG discussion was about forgiveness. Thanks God, so hard. So inreasonable.