Astonishing and validating to read this and feel as though it was written from my heart and soul. I am filing for divorce next week after 27 years of marriage to a narcissist. We did try to reconcile briefly over the past year and it was a nightmare, but had to happen for me to be able to be free physically. Emotionally is another matter. I am trying very hard to be brave. For some reason it seems to be getting harder. I am fighting depression and over the last few weeks am crying a lot. I hate it. I am dating, but at times feel that I am to messed up to even have a “normal” relationship. I second guess myself constantly. Going to my friends for assurance about most guys I choose to go out with. I know they are sick of coddling me, but I can’t seem to stop. I hope that time will heal. I feel desperate to find someone else even though I know I have no business doing so. I am 48 and feel that I am on borrowed time. I am so devastated to be starting over at this age after investing so much time and my whole self into our relationship.

Thank you for sharing.

Alisa