Naive and Tainted
So, I realized something today.
Ok, I realized a lot of things today
but I’m going to talk about one right now
since I like to keep things simple.
Whilst perusing Facebook, I came across a post about
I hadn’t heard of him either
but according to this article,
he was a Belgian poet and novelist
who wrote a book
Which got me thinking about the movie, In Bruges.
I adore that movie,
despite the gruesomeness.
I wondered why,
since I’m usually not a fan of violence.
I realized that I love that movie because
Colin Farrell’s character is both
naive and tainted.
Kind of like ‘sweet and sour’ but deeper.
Not a coating on chunks of deep-fried chicken.
An inherent coupling of two seemingly opposing states of being.
I have wrestled with the same dichotomy of being.
One moment flabbergasted that someone doesn’t have my best interests in mind.
The next moment remembering a time when I manipulated someone else
to get my way, to their detriment.
So, what do I do with this realization?
Become more naive (is that even possible?)
or more tainted until I just don’t give a shit anymore?
I don’t know.
Perhaps that’s what maturity is.
Keeping a sense of naivete
while honing the use of your experiences
until you are
ninja of life.
Yeah, I think I’ll strive for that combination from now on.