Lazy Unrealized Gilded Potential
Well said. This hit home for me. “ADHD: A Lifelong Struggle” (click on title).
It is frustrating to fear your whole life will end up as “unrealized brilliant potential” which is a “nice try at your whole life buddy, see, we told you, you were lazy.” I can feel the pain and frustration. Trapped like Superman villains in the vacuum of space screaming to get out. I can assume he attempted to say all this in a two-three pages. Further, from experience, I can assume, he couldn’t for life of him reduce it below 10,000 words. In addition, it was probably, in his view, missing 2,000 words he murdered when someone ‘normal’ pointed ‘wow, this is good. I get your theme, but it seems a bit long’.
AMEN! Hallelujah! Right On. +1. and all that jazz …
I feel the emotions and hear the painful words he emoted. Wow, I feel yeah!
I only really formed empathy about 10 years back — meaning, that, I shifted from a norm of ‘noticing that that is a moment called empathy people feel in x situation.” to “wow, shit, I feel bad for what that other human is going thru. I can’t turn it off my level of empathy.”
If you have ever injured yourself, say, slipped a disc in your lower back or neck (herniated) or twisted a knee. Life went from normal to … crying to crawl 6 1/2 feet to the bathroom to pee. Planning your moves. Pre-planning how your normal day was x and now you need to do y. Hopefuly, unlike ADHD, after weeks/months, nowadays, surgery or cortisone injection will relieve, magically IMHO the physical prison. Well, ADD/ADHD is a mental entrapment like the physical entrapment of a back injury. It is like have the herniated disc and crying everyday BUT only you feel the reality of the situation. Just like the 1 to 10 pain scale that only the back suffer copes thru as life goes on. The AD/HD mind struggling to get an idea or thought or action 6.5 feet while people tell you you are lazy and you just need to try harder.
Trust me, any AD/HD person would gladly “stop being lazy, if only that was the problem in the 1st place”. If only to stop being called Lazy in every form a thesaurus or generation wants to emote. Trust me, it started in pre-school whispered, direct, kind, or harsh — trust me — we get you think we are just plain lazy and could do anything we put our mind too — if only we could find the trailhead thru the mental brush … Oh, look a shiny object, neat, what were we talking about? j/k, but you get my point, maybe.
Observers paradox stops me from seeing it clearly from my position. Like an addict trying to talk outside the addiction. And, Observersrs paradox makes it hard the non-ADD/ADHD ‘normal’ folks to see inside either.
I’m not lazy. This thing, whatever it is, it doesn’t allow laziness inside a mental Rube Goldberg machine overclocked and running on a canary build.
Maybe “activity” without progress, but not lazy. If I could think like my sister Allene, or Fiancee Elma, etc — I would gladly convert to that design pattern. The problem is, All the “just do it” people (those and other mentioned) that I truly admire and am quite jealous to see — they converse in a foreign tongue and unfamiliar truths and actions I can reverse engineer for the life of me.
