Thank you for sharing. I think a lot of people share similar knee-jerk reactions and it takes a lot of time and exploration to find out where it comes from. Out of curiosity, do you have any help in your battle against PTSD? What has worked for you? We are still learning so much about the human mind and there are all kinds of new therapies like EMDR that are available — I hope you find something that helps you feel like the person you want to feel like all of the time.