There is research being done in neuroscience to develop a means of erasing traumatic memories (last I saw it was restricted to rodent models; it seems unlikely that it’ll be done in humans, but who knows….)

I have had a lot of severe trauma in my life (some recounted in my stories; much I’ve not yet touched upon), and still suffer from C-PTSD. It has caused so much harm, so many lost years, so much permanent damage to my body, that I have thought that — were there a way to do so — I would erase the memories altogether. They were that bad.

It is only recently — this past year, really — that I have begun to view these memories as having value, and it is still hard to see the experiences themselves as valuable. I would not wish this ‘education’ on anyone.

In any event, my experience is and always will be in me. I once thought I could be cured, and I now see that as impossible and probably even undesirable. As you said, ‘ You can transform it, use it to create, to relate to others…’

That is what I can do, and so I shall.

Nikita, thank you so much for writing.

❤ Allison