AllyDiary Entry: While I was sleeping.This is from way back when I was in it. Before I woke up. But I was starting to question things. Looking back, my heart breaks for her. It…May 18, 2022May 18, 2022
AllyDiary Entry: Waking up from sleeping.This is a post I wrote back when I was still in it. I had realised that I needed to get out and was starting to see how problematic our…Oct 7, 20211Oct 7, 20211
AllyPart 8: Father’s Day — an exercise in trying not to ruin it for everyone elseFather’s Day makes it reallly hard to pretent that your dad isn’t dead. There is no good reason that you are not talking to him on this…Oct 5, 2021Oct 5, 2021
AllyPart 7: Who hates Christmas?I used to love Christmas. It was the time of year that my entire family had to play nice. I was the piggy in the middle, being passed…Oct 5, 2021Oct 5, 2021
AllyPart 6: Who knew you could hate a day of the year so much?Some days it feels like nothing has changed. Like everything is okay. You can forget that the thing happened. You can explain the missing…Oct 5, 2021Oct 5, 2021
AllyPart 5: Living with the lights off.I’ve been trying to think of a metaphor for how I feel. I always find that once I have a good metaphor then I feel better, somehow it…Oct 5, 2021Oct 5, 2021
AllyPart 4: Life goes on. Sometimes you don’t.It’s been a year since he died. On the anniversary of his death, I went to see the sequel to his favourite movie ‘Guardians of the Galaxy…Oct 5, 2021Oct 5, 2021
AllyPart 3: The worst thing about death is other people.“So.. my dad died” — I’ve said this a lot the last couple of weeks. I’m really not sure if there is a better way to break the news to the…Oct 5, 2021Oct 5, 2021
AllyPart 2:“I know you’re dying, but this isn’t about you.”I had been a terrible daughter really. It had been a while since I’d been up to see dad so I impulsively arranged to fly up and spend…Oct 4, 2021Oct 4, 2021
AllyPart 1: Cancer SucksMy dad is tall. Like super tall. 6'6 is tall enough to make anyone think you are invincible. However, when this is followed by a dream of…Oct 4, 2021Oct 4, 2021