You’re an old soul, my friend

You’re an old soul, my friend.
You have been here many other times.
the experiences are pleasant 
and make you smile gladly,
when you recall them;
but you have also been
in an excruciating pain,
that has rotten your soul for ages.
That one isn’t a nice memory
and then you prefer to block it.
Not allowing those thoughts isn’t easy
but you try so hard.