So much of this that I can relate to. The most obvious is the age they were. Then, the decision for it to be in home. I don’t have the experience to know what the clinic ordeal would have been like, but thank God they were able to come to the place she felt safest in, a place we didn’t have to make her leave. Made all the difference.
I agree 100% on it being by far the hardest and most scar ridden loss I have ever had. I had a rough patch a few years before where I lost my partner relatively suddenly, mom died of fast and aggressive cancer, and my best friend was lost to suicide. All in less than two years. I was a wreck, and Singher was there for all of it, in many ways getting me through it. When she died I had to grieve again, for all of them.
Then there was the guilt. I could never be sure (completely) that she really was in so much pain and wanted it to end. I’m reasonably sure, but in the dark days that followed I wasn’t convinced.Then, there is the attitude from the “it’s just a pet” people. I frequently felt like saying “No, it’s not. And I won’t try explaining because you probably wouldn’t appreciate what I have to say”. I have little patience for people who refuse even an attempt at empathy.
Anyway, what a tough roads in so many ways. Though I’m sure you’ll agree, it’s more than worth it.
Gloria, thanks for sharing that.
My fav pic of Singher:
