I got hoovered again.

May 5th 2021

previous to that:

February 21, 2021

October 12, 2020

September — text

August — calls and voicemail

July — calls and voicemail

Relationship ended July 20 2020

It’s all so unbelievable.



I’m ready to kill, let god kill, everything left and lingering inside of me — that is attached to loser ex narcs — vices — coping and comforts that are not godly — and just finally put the “cherry on top” and take care of my body.

Heavenly babe coming your way.

Cant touch this.



A lot has happened.

And I’m just so exhausted now to even write about it all but.

I’m fucking ready to wake up at 4/5/6 AM and kick ass, be bad ass, and just make myself so much better than I ever was with all those losers.

Anger and revenge — shall be channeled into motivation to honor GOD, my mom, my dad, my grandma, — my sensei, and every positive person aka Angel friends who have supported me and are still here today.

Your loss losers.



Got a full refund on the dildo. Used it one last time. Hated it. Despised it. Disgusted I gave into the demons and spirit of lust. Threw it away at 3:40 in the morning.

Bye demons. Never giving into any form of lust ever again.