Being conscious of those little things

It’s funny how I first started out ( just a few days ago actually ) that I would be consistent in my writing endeavour. I thought I was going to take out a little time everyday no matter what — come hail or high water! — and write. Just write.

But of course a few days down the road and things haven’t really worked out that way, have they? For all intents and purposes, life just has a way of taking you aswift with its little distractions and daily have-to-dos and forget-me-nots. And when it isn’t those things taking over, it’s just up to good ol’ procrastination to take the reins and leave you feeling a little winded. When you’re not rolling around in a ball of shame and self-loathing that is.

When I started writing, I had wanted to do that #100 days of mindfulness because I thought it was such a great idea and I would learn more about myself that way. I still do think that, mind you. However, I have now realised that writing something that I have been mindful or rather conscious about would require a great deal of discipline on my part. Perhaps it was a little too ambitious of me to think it and I’m looking back on past me now with a more wiser look about me coupled with an “A-ha” moment of well ok then.

I also realised I actually did have a post for the first two days ( the first was going to be about isolation and the second about gratitude ) all planned out and ready in written form in my head. The problem was getting it extracted from the head and onto paper and therein lies what I have mentioned earlier. About actually finding the moment to sit and write it. There are numerous moments throughout one’s day actually. But it also comes down to timing as well I’ve realised.

I’ve also realised that it’s being conscious of those moments, however small and insignificant they may be is what truly matters. Being aware and then trying your best to do better. That’s my aim right now. We’ll see how and where things evolve from there. But for now, the plan is taking little baby steps one day at a time. Being mindful of each and every little thing along the way. And finally, learning to enjoy those little things each and every single day.

Here’s to more moments of being conscious of those little things!