Pain Behind Your Eyes

It has taken me almost a life time to see what’s been right in front of me the entire time. You know that saying you always want what you can’t have or you don’t know what you got till it’s gone what I want to know is when do you get it back?

My son always ask me mom when are you going to grow up or your adult act like one and I look at him with his ever growing mustaches and his peach fuss with his cocky little grin and wander to myself would he mad if I maybe leaned up against the side of him and breath him in, oh my goodness he is a cutie I can’t believe I had that little big man, I love him, I love him oh no did he just say mom again I better pay attention and I answer can I have a hug please? My question is do we ever grow out of this feeling? or son am grow up with you and am sorry if you get there first.