I completely agree with you! Although I have only smoked weed a handful of times, I’ve experienced similar feelings and have yet to feel that ‘relaxed’ reaction that most get out of the whole ordeal. But I’m not planning to try again anytime soon, just because my decision to use the drug was made in one of my more irresponsible, careless phases of life. Glad to know I’m not the only one who freaked out because of what might happen next, with my self-awareness heightened to a new level :-)