Israel Bound instead of Fear Bound.
Leaving DFW at this very moment to head out on the trip of a lifetime! As I sit here on the plane my heart pounds within me. Questions and doubt arise first then excitement and expectancy rise to combat. Worry pokes it’s sneaky little head up then scriptures surface in my heart to remind me of Gods hand on my life. Fear and faith go round and round. Ten days, four cities, 25 new friends, and countless moments experiencing Jesus in new ways. That is what’s ahead for me. Yet fear has a way of painting a different picture.
For months I have been right on the line of backing out of this life changing trip. Thankfully my sweet and level headed husband has been right by my side encouraging me to forge ahead while teasing me a good bit about my hesitations. He calls me his “cautious adventurous baby.” I do want to get out there. I really do want to see new places and meet new faces. But fear of the unknown holds me back.
Aren’t we all guilty of that in some way or another? Excuses and really great sounding justifications begin flowing freely — in the form of true sounding statements laced with doubt and some super spirituality. For me these are a few thoughts currently at the forefront of my mind:
- I have enough uncertainty in my life with Joel’s situation (he is a 20+ year dialysis patient).
- I don’t need another ounce of something that is unpredictable.
- I use up all my faith for our healing and wellbeing.
- I am just being a good wife.
- God has called me to focus on my husband in this season.
- I don’t need to go to the Holy land to be close to Jesus anyway.”
Writing these out makes me giggle at myself alittle! Flesh will always gravitate toward fear. Excuses. Justifications. Anything but faith. Rabbi Lapin says, “Once you allow fear in there is no shortage of things to be afraid of.” You can’t beat fear or out run it. You have to believe your way through it.
The truth is, no matter what season we are in and being faithful to, there will always be God opportunities in front of us that we will have to exercise faith in order to fully embrace.
Faith is a choice to be made daily even hourly sometimes. Moment by moment truthfully. So today and in this moment I choose to be Israel bound instead of fear bound. A choice that allows me to see the picture of truth. The Lord happily watches over me.
From my readings today:
“But you, O Lord, are a shield around me; you are my glory, the one who holds my head high. I cried out to the Lord, and he answered me from his holy mountain. I lay down and slept, yet I woke up in safety, for the Lord was watching over me. I am not afraid of ten thousand enemies who surround me on every side.” Psalm 3:3–6