Honestly, it reads like you need professional counseling. Sure, it sucks that she lost, but such is life. You can do everything right, make all the right decisions, take every proper step, but still fail. It’s how you deal with your failure that defines you as a person, and honestly it reads more like you aren’t able to deal with failure very well and thus lapse into an emotional fit. That’s mean of me I know, but it’s also important to understand that maybe calling a candidate and everyone who supported them racist misogynists wasn’t such a bright idea. Especially since the areas that he won in were voting based on economic reasons, not cultural reasons.