How Beautiful It Is To Fall In Love With Yourself!
My whole life I felt like I needed somebody else in my life to feel complete.
Learning to love myself wasn’t an easy process — I have never really been happy with myself, didn’t like my appearance and mind, thought that people don’t like me at all. On top of that, I was always looking for validation from others to feel like I mean something. It created dependence first on friends, then on romantic partners.
Two years ago I was going through an exhausting breakup when I actually faced myself. It was a tough realisation that I am the only person that will always be with me. I couldn’t rely any longer on other to love me to feel good, I had to be in charge of that.
It felt confusing at first, how could I have not noticed myself all those years and paying so much attention to the others, making them the centre of my universe?
I was too afraid to be left alone, but after I opened up to myself the best realisation came — I will never be alone again! Myself I am my best friend and companion, the only person who would ever fully understand and accept me. Why did it take me so long to realise it?
I am still learning about myself. The biggest step that I had to make was accepting myself as I am. It’s not just about the appearance, but everything — mind, thoughts, habits, personal traits. It was like meeting somebody for the first time, when you learn about them, what they like and dislike, what drives them and keeps them up at night.
Just like any other relationship, loving myself started with friendship and grew into admiration and worship.
Instead of changing what I hated about myself, I started nurturing what I love. Understanding myself in this way helped me to become a calmer, happier person, change jobs and start a business, become unapologetic about my interests and passions, make myself a priority.
That’s how I met my best friend — myself.
