What lack of sleep does to you
Good morning, world! It is Sunday today and I feel awful. You most probably remember that I have been very busy and very tired lately. Well, it got much worse a couple of days ago, when I went to sleep at 4:30 am on Thursday, woke up three hours later; then was lucky enough to go to sleep at midnight on Friday, but had to wake up at 6 am on Saturday. Finally, yesterday I went to sleep some time after 3 am and woke up at 7 something am. And yes, as a result I feel awful.
I have been feeling this way almost every day for the last couple of weeks, and I kept on telling yourself “it is ok, you can do it”, but I do not think that it is ok anymore. I am too tired. Is it worth it? Is earning X amount of money in a short period of time is worth it? Well, yes, kind of, because I will have an opportunity to make one of my dreams come true afterwards, and I suppose I will forget how hard it was very soon. Yes, probably so, but I am here today and I do not have those things yet. I just want to turn off my phone and my laptop, hide them in another, take Melatonin or something and just sleep for hours. I want to have rest, proper rest and forget about everything else.
Can I do it? Not really. Why? Because the things that I have to do are urgent. And, mind you, I am responsible, and responsible people do not go to sleep when something must be done, they just do it. I am not bragging, by the way, I am just analyzing myself and the situations I get into.
Oh, also! A few weeks ago, when summer started I wrote a post about being ok with not having a vacation and not going on a trip this summer. Do you remember it? Well, I do not feel this way anymore. Probably to keep this previous state of mind, I need to stop all social media until the end of summer, so that these nasty people won`t upset me with their exciting trips all over the place. UGH! After sleeping well, I want a trip incredibly much. There is nothing that makes me as happy as travelling does, but I know that I must be patient. I must be patient.
Finally, I wonder how many people live in a constant state of such exhaustion? I am sure there are many of them, and I am sorry to realize that it is the reality. Everyone should get enough hours of sleep, everyone deserves rest. Oh, especially on Sunday, but guess what? The “glamourous” (as everyone outside of it sees it) industry of fashon does not know what “weekends” are. Boom! Surprising, right? I bet most people still think that working in fashion means dressing up and sipping cocktails at parties, but nope.
I know, that I should stop that whining, and I will do so very soon. It is Sunday, a day, which has always been a day for having rest all around the world (am I wrong here? If yes, let me know), and this is why I hope that you will have a great day! Please take it easy and enjoy it. Do not turn it into another Monday, remind yourself that it is a weekend, that it is time for taking care of yourself, for having fun and some proper rest. Please, please, please.
P.S. When this hell is over, I promise I will write more properly and I will stop whining so much. I promise!
P.S. 2. I hate summer! I hate heat. I have always known that I should have been born somewhere else, where summer does not mean 32 in June and 37 in July. I hate being hot all the time and I hate AC for making me feel sick, when I feel sick already. I need to be at a place, where temperature is 20 degrees. Everything after 25 is exhausting for me. When is autumn?
