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I realized that leaving a place could actually break your heart..

I’m going to move to another state, another school, another family, and another home.

I can’t explain how I feel. In other side I’m super excited but in the other side my heart is screaming. It’s hurt. You can call this thing “Mixed feeling”.

Everything went way too fast. I don’t even realize that it’s been a month since I am here in North Carolina, USA. Sometimes I saw the sky, wondering what would I feel if I won’t see the same sky after my program ends. But actually it doesn’t to wait the program to end to stop seeing this sky again. It’s just need a month.

It’s crazy If I saw the calendar that it is now the time of my exchange year. The first selection was in 2015 and I don’t know if I could get this chance to study abroad. Being an exchange student.

I thought that everything is going as I plan but suddenly it changes. I’m not afraid of change. What I am afraid is leaving. Leaving all this things that I have build. But that’s what you pay for being a traveler.

I can’t believe everything that had passed here. Everyone that I met. My favorite food or even my new routine that I don’t realize it’s different than my past routine.

I feel like I’m in a rollercoaster. I feel like in the highest place when I first came, I feel like in the most bottom place when it’s the first week of school. And I feel like the roller coaster just want to go up again because I had adjust life in here. But then, I don’t know where I am in my rollercoaster. Maybe the upside down.

It’s hard. It’s sour. It’s frustating. But it’ll worth it.