No Authority

Most of the time I curse myself, why do I have to be so nice? I keep letting things go and say, “hey… its alright I think I have made my point” but no, I tell that to myself to be optimistic as possible, but every time I try to act positive something will hinder me from my positivity. I keep telling myself they won’t do it again , but my postivity is a curse, my body keeps telling me to give them time to learn and understand you, but the real thing is they won’t change. Positivity can only give you pain, there are no perks of being postive. People have to be mad to make people do as they say, but if you’re nice HA! name a person whose loyal to you other than your close friends, someone who will do you a favor in exchange from the nice things you do. Im done having no authority, Im done being jolly,Im done being optimistic,but my mind says keep doing it Andre! and I keep falling for it every single day. Ignoring the past, ignoring the destructive things that they do. I thought they we’re hurting me, I was hurting my self.