Let It Be.

It’s been an okay week so far. It’s only Thursday so that means that tomorrow is that day that everybody looks forward to. Sometimes I can’t tell the difference between the days so the feeling is the same for all of them. I think that’s the hard part about working for yourself at times.

My days literally just run together and there’s no filter. I remember when I was in school and would look forward to Fridays and Saturdays; this is in stark contrast to how I feel about them today.

Somebody tweeted earlier this week — if I can recall it — something that truly spoke to me. It was referring to any growth that we have in our own individual lives and how people may or may not see it for us. I’m gonna paraphrase and say that it’s about other peoples’ expectations of you.

Here’s the stitch: I’ve been trying to become this better version of myself since about three weeks ago. I did something I’d never done before and I admitted my flaws. I said what I needed to say even if it came out like incoherent babble. I took a hard look at myself and admitted that I was the monster…I was the problem. I believe people are capable of change. I truly do. I want you to know that said change is FOR YOU, and not anybody else. There are going to be the disenfranchised who are gonna come at you sideways and think that they know you so well and that you won’t take steps to change…or get better. There are gonna be people who don’t ever ‘see the change’ or ignore your progress because they believe that you are so stuck in your ways. Now, I will say that this doesn’t apply to everybody. Some of yall are probably just stuck but I’m making efforts to change. I’m determined to not allow that to be true for me. I’m reflecting daily about how I can lead myself down a better path. The others will wait. They’ll think that you’re changing for them…but nah.

You’re making the change FOR YOU…and that’s all that matters. Let them say what they think. Let them think what they’re gonna think. They’re gonna do that anyway…so you might as well just, let it be. I would be lying if I said this was an easy process. It hurts — like hell. They’ll realize it when you become focused, stern, and quiet. I can promise you that. Try not to get frustrated. You’ve come this far.