Hey Dia. I am not sure if you will read this but I want you to know your whole post really struck a chord with me(no pun intended). You were amazing on the voice and it was actually nice to see another Happa in the music industry representing us. I am 26, and I have been writing music since I was 18. I must have at least 90 songs written but truth be told no one will really ever hear them. The reality is I am terrified that people will hate and dislike the art I spent hours and hours upon creating, so I shy away from playing. But there is not a single day, or almost or hour that I do not fantasize about the stage.
Unlike me you have an amazing singing voice, but more importantly you have an amazing amount of courage and thank you for being so real in this post. I was always jealous of people on musical competitions for having the sheer vocal talent I never did, but I think you just exposed the pane glass of the music industry of what it is.
I am not a millionaire but I have well paying job in tech right now, but it will never bring me the happiness I feel when I doing something creative. Whats the point of a salary if you are not happy? I think it is amazing you are pursuing your art and I think you are amazing. Because of this post I will definitely listen for your record because I cannot wait to hear how you honesty translates into your work.
Andrew Van Beek