You can listen to this musing here, or read it below. I’m surprised by the process of writing. Sure, I’ve written some musings and retreat descriptions. And in my previous life, I wrote many requirement specifications, patents and technical white-papers. But writing a book about my passion is different. It’s…

Listen to me talking about bondage from the perspective of both Art and Healing. As sadomasochism and esoteric eroticism is getting more mainstream, I think it becomes utterly important to differentiate what is what. Therapy is the safe bet that has been proven and tested to use with the exposed and vulnerable. Art is the journey into the unknown. That is, by default, not safe. And requires resources. When something is both therapy and art at the same time, then I get worried.

In Japanese folklore, it’s a common belief that everything has a spirit. A household object that is older than one hundred years can be possessed by a Yōkai, a spirit or ghost, and become Tsukumogami (付喪神). As long as you treat the object respectfully, there is nothing to worry about. But if you don’t… That’s why I always have an eerie feeling in my stomach when I explore the old abandoned house, but the play of shadows makes the result worth it.

You can listen to this musing here, or read it below. I remember entering the tall glass building of the Ohara School of Ikebana in Tokyo’s Aoyama district for the first time. The smells from walking by the flower shop on the first floor and the neatly pre-ordered packages wrapped…

More photos by Estonian photographer Olavi Sõna that capture a session with me and Heidi Hanson for the February edition of the women’s magazine, Eesti Nainee.

You can listen to this musing here, or read it below. I have a big love for men. When I first got in contact with men’s work, it came at me from many angles, from esoteric festivals and my previous careers when coaching teams mainly consisted of men. In the…

Over the past years, my curiosity has always driven me more towards the east than the west. I’ve been teaching in Estonia for more than five years and have formed many strong friendships during this time. One of them is with Heidi Hanso, who is an influencer, TV show host…

I just bought a new camera. A black and white only camera. I talk to a friend who is one of the best photographers I know. He says: Wow, Andy, that is quite a commitment. I can see him slowly shaking his head in my mind’s eye. I used my…

At the Ängsbacka New Years celebration, I recreated the death meditation. It was a dream and nightmare returning. Here is the experience of Hajnalka Indigo Wings. Death meditation, the experience of Hajnalka Indigo Wings Edit descriptionvideopress.com This is a video that can only be seen on my web page. How do you tell someone they are going to die? How…