Xperia Xperience

Materialism at its worst.

Last Friday, I received my long overdue paycheck. It was really delayed and was finally relieved to have gotten hold of the fruit of my one month labor. I have been working for more than a year now and I don’t have any savings. Not even a centavo.

When I had my salary in my hands, I was really tempted to buy the phone that I really wanted to have. The catch is that it is worth 95% of my salary. For two days, I had been thinking of deciding whether I should buy it or not. I had been reading reviews upon reviews of the latest Xperia phone in town. I was listing down all the right reasons as to why I should buy the phone.

The problem started when I impulsively sent an order through an online store. I confirmed that I am ‘sure’ to buy the phone without really weighing down my options. I started to panic. I asked my friends, some said “yes go for it” while others replied a straight “no”.

In the end, I did not buy it… and that lead me to writing this down. I need to process this. This is a chance for me to grow.

For more than 7 years of being independent, I have always been living on the edge. That, pertains to my finances. I am always in the border of little to no money at hand. I guess I am used to it. Having no parents to depend with and being a self-supporting person, I always buy myself “stuff that I need/want” whenever I have money so I always end up having none. The real struggle comes 2-5 days before the next salary.

To be honest, today is a breakthrough. For the first time in my life, I was able to control myself. Yes, I deserve the gadget, blah blah blah, but I know that I deserve more. Maybe the reason why I couldn’t sleep tonight is because I need to reconcile myself that I did the right thing.

“Andy, what you did is totally brave. You need not spend every peso that comes to you. Save. Invest in your future. One day, you will be able to get the stuff that you want. Right now, think ahead. Make the right choices and decisions. You did the right thing.”

The Xperia Xperience? Zero. At least, I think I’m starting to mature now. ☺