Low Self Esteem and Projection Of Power
Have you ever had that one friend in your group in highscool who is always looking for their “next big move” into the “cool kids group?” Have you ever went to a music venue or club just to watch your whole friend group disperse into the crowd of strangers and ignore their own friends? Have you ever met someone who’s into self help or working out and does everything they can to change the version of themselves that they are now? If you answered yes to any of these you’ve experienced an example of “low self esteem and projection of power.”
There are many percs to being cool with too many people to be defined as anything other than a nerd. Growing up I was the “nerd who was cool with everyone on a personal level.” Since I don’t do superficial group shit I have always been completely comfortable under the pressure of the way people see me so long as I know myself. It hasn’t always been easy but nonetheless I have ALWAYS overcome the urge to let a person or a group of people lower my self value and project my power out too them.
We can map this out like high school so everyone understands. Being friends with the jocks, the computer geeks, psychology nerds, skate/punk kids etc etc etc I’ve had the opportunity to see how all of these groups dynamics interact within the groups and even better how they interact with each other. I have somewhat of an internal model of how people work individually and thus socially. The luxury I’ve had is mainly being a high IQ nerd and watching as my friends trapped in their nerdy identity tend to; push people away who like them and ; chase people who don’t like them. What a fucking loser. I don’t like to say that a lot but if there is an opportunity to call someone a whore or a loser it is best applied when you meet somebody who does not love their family, who does not love their friends, who does not love themselves, who has no gratitude for anything around them and fills this void in with an opportunity to climb social or organizational ladders.
We watch as people around the world want to producer for the largest musicians, people want to be apart of the largest friend group, people want to be the version of themselves people like. I understand this to be low self esteem and lack of gratitude. But what is the cure for this? You are given both of these options everyday. You can validate your low self esteem by chasing only things that deny you or you can double down on your position in life and double down on gratitude. Gratitude; the abundant mindset that attracts all nature and life inner and outer. No one ever got to the top by climbing to the top. Everyone ends up at the top by believing in where and who they are right now.
I’ll tell you personally; how dare you betray the people you’ve fell in love with. How dare you betray the people who love you. How dare you betray your own self love. How dare you deny the things that love and care about you most. Do not project your power. Your love is here to be had.
Projection of power is a disease of low self esteem and complete lack of gratitude. When you show up to the venue know that the coolest people there are the people who you arrived with. When you arrive in the world know that you are not looking for love you came with love. You are love. If you’re looking for gold, new opportunities, love, power, and you think you’re going to find it “out there” you are a loser and a failure. Focus on your gratitude for the things and people you already love. They need you and you can guide eachother too deeper gratitude that becomes magnetic and attracts the world to you. At first this will be difficult because our entire reality consensus is based off of projection of power and “finding the thing other people are finding.” Don’t be a consumer of someone elses agenda and perspective of life. People may not agree, especially consumer people who “where is the highest ass I can kiss” consumer mentality controls their life. They may thing you’re a loser for not playing the failing game. But low and behold the creator of the game runs the fucking game and being called a loser may be hard sometimes. But being a fucking loser is rock bottom. Love the people you showed up with. You guys are the prize, not a bunch of fucking strangers who want to revalidate and even share your low self esteem.