Late night rant

While I wait for a specific phone call I just wanted to come here and vent. After a special someone finally convinced me to make a blog I’ve kinda put my everyday journal to the side. That’s usually where I would go to but I’m kinda liking this one more. So, yes. Today was a great day but towards the end it took an unexpected turn. I let go of an old friendship and rekindled a new one all within the same two hours. It’s so crazy to me that you can forgive certain people but then others you just can’t, at least I’m that way. I guess some people are more genuine than others. Sometimes we do want to forgive people but we just don’t know how to. Other times you’re sure you won’t forgive a certain person but as soon as you speak to them you realize that people make mistakes and there you go… forgiving and whatnot. Then there’s the people who half-butt apologize. The whole “I’m sorry but.. but… but…” are you sure you’re sorry? Sounds to me like you’re sorry you don’t have a better excuse to justify yourself with.

After a couple minutes of a couple tears and talks I receive a phone call and I’m so sure that it was heaven sent. The Lord reminded me that everything is so temporary. Yeah, sometimes life is one son of a gun but it gets better. Sometimes I like to think that I can do it all on my own, that I don’t need prayer but goodness gracious the Lord always finds a way to speak to me.

I had a talk with my pastor about my future and where I want to be spiritually in a few years and it made me open my eyes and realize that I won’t get there by crying over a lost friendship. Over disappointment. Over anger. I have a wonderful family, friends, best friend and boyfriend. I don’t know about anyone else but I hate disappointment, nothing like holding someone on a pedestal only to be let down. But I can’t forget about the good. Lucky for me I’ve always had the good outweigh the bad and I only have one person to thank for that. And honestly, where is my phone call? I am going to murder gerald. Goodnight Angie’s Blog.