Can empathise with your feelings as your pain radiates through your words. If this is the situation in US think of what similar people go through in developed countries where the stigma attached can destroy you as a person totally.
I feel that we attach too much significance/emphasis and weight to sex in relationships and this is warping our world view. here is much more to life than sex. To contemplate suicide on this is I feel an insult to the almighty who made you so beautiful and privileged to live in a society of plenty. I feel each person must get a purpose in life that transcends mere satisfaction of the senses.