Who is wrong?

anjalization
Jul 20, 2017 · 3 min read

So this weather sucks, and he is not even replying. God! What should I do with this ‘guy community’ ?! These people need to understand some simple logic about how we are ‘programmed’! I can’t stand this anymore. He has to understand that I can’t stand the idea of him talking to that stupid girl. Why doesn’t he understand the amount of love I have for him? He knows I can’t keep expressing it 24*7 and he has to stop taking me for granted.

“Hey!”, a notif popped up.

“Hi honey!”, I replied irresistibly.

Why am I replying in an instant? Doesn’t he deserve a day-long wait and a considerable amount of anxiety before he draws my attention?

“What were you doing?”, his daily question had arrived just on time.

“Nothing unusual. What about you?”, the last thing I wanted to know right now.

“Just got free from office. Thought of planning something with you!”, he suddenly sounded interested in me. I am not that special, am I?

“I don’t have anything in my head. Call me when you are ready with a plan. Bye!”, trying to sound least interested in him, I closed my phone and started scrolling Facebook.

“Okay, bye!”, his usual less-loving and ignoring tone was the reason I didn’t want to talk to him in the first place but I’m in love, duh!

Why am I stretching days with him? Why can’t he simply go to that stupid girl and leave me in peace? Anyway I am an annoying, jealous girl who is not respecting his personal space and ‘friends’.

Somebody knocked the door.

I opened the door and he hugged me.

“Why are you here?”, I asked with all my blames and complains running in background.

“You weren’t sounding happy so I wanted to make sure that you’re alright. You know, I can’t see you sad!”, he was in his usual caring tone.

“I don’t understand you! Whole day you’re ignoring me and suddenly you’re ready to give your life for me! How do I get you?!”, I said while dipped in shock and confusion.

“Simple! Calculate the average and know that I don’t forget you for a single second. I was just plain busy.”, he said with a small kiss on my cheek.

“Okay now get ready for a mouth-watering dinner! You should look as hot as the food I’m going to get you tonight! And don’t ask me anymore questions. I’m waiting for you here.”, he sat on the couch as he added this.

And I’m still bewildered.

How does he takes away all my complains with one damn dinner plan? How does he manages to irritate and love me in a single hour on clock? Did he met that girl today also? Did he eat with her? How can I ask him all this? Why is that girl still in my head? Oh God, I feel so guilty for doubting him!

Who is wrong? He talking to her or me thinking unnecessarily about her? It isn’t a big deal, is it? Why am I like this? Now I don’t have any option other than blaming myself for the whole story I made up in my head! How do I tell him that I know he loves me and I don’t really doubt him? It just seems like my natural instinct to think wrong about him.

“Honey, you ready?”

“Yes, in a minute!”, I left my thoughts without reaching any conclusion. I guess this is how my life is. He can drive it the way he wants. And I have to wait till I get to any final decision. I guess, I can’t take control everytime I wish.

“Let’s go”, I said as I entered the hall.

“You look gorgeous!”, he kissed me again and we left.

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