Ascertain

Anmol Anand
Sep 6, 2018 · 3 min read

So many people all around me

I want to push, why?

So many lies all around me

I want to hide, why?

So many fake faces all around me,

I want to punch, why?


Things could have been better

But I made them worse

Friends could have been all around me

But I’m sitting alone

Memes could have brought me a smile

But I’m writing this line

Why?


I picture myself sitting beside the window

Wind blowing near my ears

Clouds holding tears

Birds escaping the claws of night

But now I can’t see the light


No one is invited in this mansion

Why do people still arrive?

Once I wanted blank space in my life

But that doesn’t mean no one beside

Don’t want anyone to know me

Cause that will hurt me eventually

Reading all these lines,

Feels like I’m psychopath

No…


I got no problem with the people

The only person that annoys me

Is the person in the mirror

I kept on asking not to expect from me

That will make you uncomfortable

That’s the only thing making me vulnerable

I always tell everybody to be yourself

But I know, I myself am someone else inside!

Kept the expectation bar so high

Fell hundred times cause I lie

Deadline for the craft was yesterday

But it’s still in the draft phase

Smile for a moment

Now getting sad after reading your comments


I used to sleep with the smile on the face

Now getting behind in the race

Happiness was always beside me

Now expectation is all around me

Bliss saw this happening

She up and left

You can call me a cheater

But give it a second thought before you say it

You don’t know what I’m dealing with

How could you know when doors were closed

I’m afraid to open

Cause you will be left frozen

That’s the reason I’m trying to write this poem


I’m not the one who will put a knife around the wrist

Just to see what’s there inside

If you don’t care

No need to take a glimpse


I have been through a lot

Just don’t know how to express it to people

But please do not think that I can’t

What’s your definition of depression

You don’t need to lecture me

Why are you so close to me

I told you to stay away from me

I made you a song

You made me a mess


I heard these lines will replace you

Haven’t you heard, I no longer need you

Inside the mirror, there was a man he used to be

I no longer need to see

I don’t want to see your face

I don’t want to see your fake face

My life is not something to gamble with

You are the one I gabble with


You always ask me

“Why are you sick with your pen”

“Why don’t you talk with your friend”

You really don’t understand what it does to me

Sitting quietly with my friends

Lot of things going inside my head


It’s hard to tell what’s inside my head

Why should I sit around the people who don’t care what they are doing

Why should I sit around the people who don’t love what they are doing

Why should I sit around the people who always nod their head as if they agree

Why should I sit around the people who doesn’t challenge me


I don’t take advice from the people who doesn’t listen to mine

I don’t care what are you doing till you come inside my line

There is this lesson learned

No more paper to be burned

I hope that you sleep now

Prey for you to choke now

I don’t want you in my life anymore

Won’t let you win this war anymore


I want to dedicate this to my friend who was smiling beside me

When I was on the ground, NO!

I want to dedicate this to my girl who was busy saying her own stuff

When I was stressed, NO!

I want to dedicate this to me who was standing alongside

When I was about to fall!

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