Just passing by to let you know you don’t need to be a representative of all women in tech. It’s one of the things women in tech fight for: the right to just be herself, not every single woman.
Also, if you can, don’t let go of your dream — don’t let them win. I’m sure there’s tons of girls interested in robotics, or working in robotics. It’s hard to heal, to need to leave a toxic but familiar environment, to make such a big change. But being around other girls may give you the strenght you want to have — it will help you heal and will create a safe environment for you to develop.
We all started in accepting and maybe even reproducing that behaviour. It’s lovely that you see how toxic it can be. It means you are able to pass through this. And we’re here to help =)
(Also, you were very brave in writing this. You go, girl! (;)