Choice is power

If the ability to choose is considered as power, if we are unable to choose does that then make us powerless?

I wish that I could say that I completely and utterly believe that we choose what we become in life, but I don’t. At the end of this life we will all die whether we want to or not.

The reality is we don’t have a choice over what happens to us in life, I didnt have a choice at 8 years old when my father abused me, nor did I have a choice when a father-figure from church tried to get into my pants nor did i have a choice when Kelly decided that I would become her play toy for 2 years.

No matter what I said, she did what she wanted to - or rather what she needed to do anyway. And just over 2 years later the fact that no matter what i said or did she chose what was going to happen still haunts me. 
 I had no freedom.
I believed she had all the power, afterall she was the one who chose what she wanted to do and do it regardless of what I would say. I was completely powerless - that much I know is true, but did she really have all the power? 
Was she given the right to choose instead of me? 
Or did I give her that right to choose and have all the power by not saying NO enough times?
But what if maybe just maybe neither of us had any power and for that matter any choice? Maybe she was so severely sick that she was powerless too ?
And maybe it was some sick predestined thing that brought us together, and if that is in fact the truth then what kind of sick being made my destiny to be abused over and over again by people I was meant to trust ?
Why can I not choose for myself what I want my life to be like and which people I want in my life?

But, and I say this with caution, maybe we aren’t given the power to choose everything in life because we wouldn’t know what to do with that power, and with great power comes great responsiblity. And maybe some force in the universe actually does know what is best for everyone. Maybe this force knows that if we could choose our own destiny we would never choose something that may cause us harm. And if we never go through anything that hurts us how will we ever be able to grow and strengthen ourselves?

So if choice is power and we have no choice, that most definitely does not make us powerless. Instead it gives us an unimaginable amount of power and strength, enough to overcome all that life may throw at us.